one interesting development

So, literally, about 10 minutes after I posted my last entry I get a text from Derek, "Hey L, what's going on?" so I write back and tell him that I'm having a pretty quiet Friday night. (I was babysitting my niece at the time. )He tells me that he's hanging out with another guy from work, Troy (note: super cute, polite, and sweet--but only 24), and invites me to join them at a bar.

Now, I weigh my options. While I as all cozy and ready for bed, and not much in the mood to go out for a drink...I realized that if I told Derek "no" again, he will, definitely give up on me forever! So, I tell him that I will come out as soon as my sister & her husband get home.

I ended up convincing Derek & Troy to meet me at a bar closer to my home, where a few girlfriends of mine happened to be hanging out. We meet at the bar, and after he hugs me, he says, "Its about time I get you to come out with me!" and then turns to Troy and says, "Man, I've been trying to have drinks with this girl for like, 3 months!" (It's actually been closer to 4 but I wasn't going to correct him.)

So, the group of us hung out and chatted and joked, and had a really, really fun evening. It was surprisingly flattering when Troy would ask me a question about myself, and he'd respond with, "Oh, that's right! Derek told me about that." Which means, that Derek has talked to him a bit about me.

We didn't have very much time to talk alone, so I can't quite tell what's going on, if anything. And, I haven't quite decided if I want anything to happen at this point...but I'm definitely interested in seeing where things are headed. At one point during the evening, Troy and Derek went out to the patio and then Derek came back in to ask me to join them. They were venting to me about work, and then a girl approaches to talk to Troy, so Derek leaned over to talk to me. He looks in my eyes and after commenting on how dark my eyes are says, "So, I've been meaning to ask you..." and then we're interrupted by a bar tender who gives us the 5 minute warning. At this point, Derek, has had enough to drink and completely loses his train of thought...so I'll never know what he was going to say.

We closed down the bar at 2 am and I drove a friend home, drove myself home, and then stayed up texting with Derek until about 3:30 am.

I guess we'll see what happens...

- L

where have I been?

I have been terrible about keeping up with this thing, but in my defense its because, relationship-wise, nothing thrilling has happened to me in the past month, so there hasn't been much to write about. I'm getting kinda discouraged.

the updates:
speed-dating: 2 of the 4 girls that went speed-dating went on dates with boys from the event. I am not one of them. All 4 of us matched with the same guy, and he chose to ask out my one of the other girls. 2 of the girls matched with the same other guy, who asked both of them out...and one of them accepted. I have to say 50% is pretty fair odds, right?

curtis: I still haven't rekindled the friendship with my most recent ex-boyfriend...and I'm still not sure if I'd like to. He's tried Gmail chatting with me a couple of times and has sent a few texts since our last awkward encounter, but I'm still getting this uneasy feeling in my tummy when I think about seeing him. its been 3 months at this point, but I think we need more time.

the wedding: My friends WI wedding was absolutely beautiful! I was worried a bit about traveling alone...well, I guess I shouldn't say "worried" per say, but I was wishing that I had someone to accompany me. But, everything actually turned out really well. I mapped a few art boutiques and restaurants that I wanted to check out and actually appreciated having the freedom to explore alone. On my trip back, I kept thinking about how differently the weekend would have been if I'd gone with a date.

office romance: After my latest non-intentional rejection to Derek, I think that he's completely given up on me. I've tried texting him a bit here and there...and he responds, but just doesn't really ask me to hang out anymore. I don't blame him, I'd give up on me too...but I'm secretly hoping he hasn't completely lost hope that I will hang out with him. But, the surprising twist is that I was texting him from the airport on Sunday and...apparently, he got the dates of the concert mixed up and its actually not until July 24th. I re-invited myself to go with him by saying "if the invitation still stands, I'd love to go" so...it looks like that may possibly be a go in a couple of weeks.

We'll see...

- L